I want to take odds with a smile

IMG_2210It has been almost two months now that I had met with an accident and I am writing this blog to bring awareness how hard can be for someone who goes through all the confusion and pain getting to know the symptoms while dealing with post concussion syndrome (PCS) and support that is much required. A person with PCS may show little signs of illness physically but it is more mentally that only a patient can describe. The day I am without tears I will know, I have fully accepted my unusual lifestyle until complete recovery. I also want to express gratitude to my family; friends who have shown kindness and support; my workplace for accepting my absence in the past days; my doctor Dr Muninder Lotay for his constant assessment and cheerful dialogue while I am still recovering. I remember saying I am thankful to All mighty for giving me a second life and I wished to do more for the community around.  I had heard my friend telling me that I had to keep watch on my symptoms and discuss with my doctor.

IMG_4694 Being a work freak, I want to take my work responsibly (Picture taken two days before writing the blog)

Especially for anyone who leads an active lifestyle it can be mentally daunting and frustrating. My doctor explained how a speeding car if needs a repair, will take some time to be in its usual speed. My friend Meena, to whom I talked the other day motivated me and said GOD in our lives gives us stop signs so that we could rest. And I had to ACCEPT it for a while until I recovered completely. My husband comforted me while being away, to keep myself strong and my sister reminded me that I had take health as my first priority. Which meant no running/ exercising/ multitasking/ Long distance driving/ talking on extended lengths/ attending social events on routine basis. Instead spending more time relaxing, meditating and painting.

My first week IMG_0205In my first week I had no idea how my coming days would look like. My body was cramped and most of the time was spent in sleeping and under the influence of medicines which I later decided to discontinue; there was a visit to a car rental, impound site where my badly damaged vehicle was. Being a strong woman I had decided to carry on my duties as scheduled and go ahead in the upcoming events in which I was participating. Little did I realize if I was having dizziness and  if I was making mistakes in my memory, what that really meant ?

I was delivering my work and pushed myself against the odds of dizziness and headaches. Finally after two weeks the symptoms seemed unbearable and I thought of discussing with my doctor. Standing for five minutes or even doing a simple task to broom the floor became impossible. My doctor thoroughly assessed me and advised me complete rest for the next two weeks. Most of time was spent sleeping, closing my eyes that immediately lead me to a nap mode. I was lethargic to my surprise and I could clearly see my senses very slow. Never had I known what lying on a couch is, as I had always been active, every time doing something meaningful. I thought to my self this is not me lying on the couch through out the day and would be in tears. As advised by my doctor I had started to take things easy without multitasking that helped me and gave rest to my brain. No way was I inclined to talking on phone or messaging as that meant draining my mental energy, I spent lot of time in hot tub with Epsom salts and aromatherapy.

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I felt lethargic, I wanted to make myself good.  I had read people who go through concussion syndrome can get into depression. I even got a new haircut 😊

IMG_3161I did some crazy things to keep myself happy and thinking that complete rest was the end of it and I was heading to complete recovery. Spend some time during the day doing a painting and named the series “Therapeutic Collection”

With complete rest of two weeks I was quite happy the way things were going, still unaware what I will be facing emotionally in the coming days. I started to work 3-4 hours in a day against my doctors suggestion of working only for 2 hours. I expressed to my doctor that I wished to try working for at least 3 hours. To my dismay it did not work. The dizziness continued with headaches and numbness with sleepless nights. It resulted in aggravation of my symptoms. I think it was hard for me to accept that I could not multitask and it was frustrating.

On a regular follow up with my doctor, he has referred me to a rehab brain program. And I will blog more about my experience as I continue to recover. I will continue to follow what my doctor advises and take things with a smile.

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Life is beautiful and we should be overcoming the challenges with ACCEPTANCE

love

Raman 😊

God bless everyone!!

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